Have you experienced similar frustrations? Have you tried to leave your old self behind and start something fresh and new only to discover the only thing that changed was your address? When this has happened to me I am discovering it's easier to embrace my most ugly or hated parts of me then it is to try to pretend they aren't there.
I'm learning it's in this embrace that there is something else at work. A powerthat seems hidden or unseen until you realize you are no longer who you once were. You've been transformed into someone new.
Call it God. Call it grace. Call it dealing with your crap. What ever you name it, one thing remains true. It's a part of you like everything else. However, it's a gift or a new birth of sorts. One that welcomes you with Love, and loves you in our nakedness, accepts you unconditionally despite your brokenness, and empowers you to become what you were always intended for be.
A love maker, not an escape artists.
(1) Chadwick, Owen. Western Asceticism, ed., trans. (The Westminster Press: 1958), p. 92.
An ex-copywriter turned punk rock pastor and peacemaker who dedicates his life to making the world a better place for all humanity.
"that they all might be one" ~John 17:21
“Prius vita quam doctrina.”
~ St. Thomas Aquinas (1225–1274)
* “Life is more important than doctrine.”