What's my motivation?

Week ten. The last week of the quarter. My energy is low and I do not have the desire to do my school work. I need motivation. I have to muster some sort of energy to get me going. But I can’t seem to do it. And so I use the excuse, “It must be senioritous.” You know, that feeling of being so close to graduation that finishing the horrific task of final papers and final exams no longer carries any weight or fear or anxiety.  I felt this way my entire senior year of high school, and pretty much my final year in undergrad. But this is different. I am in seminary and I am suppose to care about every little thing, every bit of knowledge and wisdom I can attain is of vital importance to my calling. God’s calling! It has to be important. Right? So why do I let myself blow off my work?

But then, as I am trying to pretend I am holy, I open a bible app on my phone (not to read a bible verse mind you but to see who the developer is who made the app.) and what pops up? The verse of the day. Colossians 3:17… “And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by Him.” Good Jewish mother style guilt. Just when I need a good kick in the butt, God is there to give it to me.

This verse helped me realized that no matter what I am trying to get of doing, be it homework or ignoring a human being or changing the way we think about one another, we are not doing it for ourselves or for others or even for a better world (all which are great and positive things). We are doing well for the world as a means to give thanks for God who gave us this wonderful world to live and play in.  So go out and give thanks to God by doing something God would want you to do.