So...I promise to give up being angry. Not too hard, or so I thought. However, in spite of working hard to be more mello over the last few years, this has proven to be more difficult than I imagined. I guess that is the goal of Lent, yes?
While I no longer scream at the car in front of me for texting while driving, I still get angry when the Laker's blow a lead to lose a game. Perhaps I don't get angry with my children playing loudly, but I struggle with not getting upset when I step on a toy that I told them 8 times to pick up. And even though I no longer get angry when I see the lack of hair on my head, I still find myself peeved that I have to live with all that hair on the bathroom floor.
What have I learned so far? Well, I am no longer getting angry at the big things, but the little stuff I still need to work on. And by working on it, I have realized that anger (no matter how big or small) doesn't move me forward towards any of my goals. By making the Lenten promise to myself and God, I have discovered that instead of letting my anger get to me I would use it to better me. Now, when doesn't drive the way I want them to, I no longer chastise them behind my windshield, I ease off the gas and let them go their own way. When I step on a toy, I don't kick it across the living room floor but pick it up and put it away. As for the hair all over the bathroom floor, I realized there is nothing I can do but to sweep it up and throw it away. As a result the road is safer, my house is cleaner, and my entire family is much happier.
With only one week left in Lent, I hope I have been able to discipline myself and making a habit that sticks.